Lost Again but Tripping
I just lost my entry again, which angered me and then made me laugh.
I had no pain or numbness tonight. Breath became still but energy hummed along limbs and buzzed in my head. Enlarging the Breath to fill the body sort of dissolves the body. And then the meditation becomes like this rapid visionary trip: Layers peel off. Sharp bliss twinges, but better calm prevails.
I realized I wanted to sit longer. At one point opened my eyes and saw some swirls but couldn’t really control them. I decided not to fully trust them, because I know I create them yet they didn’t listen to my overt intention.