Dissolution of (Physical) Pain
This sit went better. I started with a lot of pain. Long, slow breaths and focus on spreading comforting breath energy to the painful parts of the body helped. I ended, in fact, with almost no pain. I ended relaxed, although I still had intrusive performance-anxiety thoughts and plans to journal this sit, which is kind of funny in hindsight. I did experience longer blocks of focus and was surprised how easy it was to dissolve pain and tension by using the simple techniques in Thanissaro’s and Ajahn Lee’s samatha meditation manuals.
I saw that my current feelings of disgust with my friends is somehow coming from my hunger for money and lifework.