I did a one-card reading on the other party’s current state of mind regarding the whole MCTB2 dispute: I drew the High Priestess reversed.

The image, painted by Marie White, is one of the most whack in the whole deck, although there are strong contenders. I love this deck, although it is frequently dark and disturbing, very death-and-sex edgy.


This card is associated with Lillith, the first woman, before Eve, who refused to lie under the magician, Adam, but went her own way to give birth to demons (oh, nice!) on her own.

She is the dark void, the destructive force that is the mother of creation, the feminine. Scary, knowledge-concealing sneaking feminine. So, in reversed position, the traditional divinations are 

  • Lack of revealed knowledge, 
  • Ignorance, and 
  • Deeply subconscious shame.

This card is fear and shame amid chaos, with the feminine stamp on it.

The High Priestess is the guardian of secrets and will keep confidences, but when she reverses she suggests betrayal by a woman. She may reveal secrets. Her presence may bring unwanted intrigue and mystery. She can disturb a normally unruffled exterior.

The reversed state may highlight the possibility that my opponent has not fully utilized his talents, or has not realized his full potential. He knows this on a deep level, and the confrontation over MCTB2 ownership and control is forcing him to face this uncomfortable truth. He needs to fully, blossom, or he will never be truly happy. Relationships may become increasingly cool and detached as he ages, compounding his feelings of isolation and loneliness.  

This card also represents not really hearing advice from counsel, ignoring it, not facing the truth, and consequently going further off the path.

This is a reading derives from Marie White’s manual that accompanies the deck, and traditional divinatory meanings of this card as researched online.

I’ve lately been having many dreams about performance:
performing in an arena, writing, or taking tests. And I’ve been having many car or truck traveling dreams. Alan Wallace refers to these repeated triggers as–can’t remember the
term–but repeated images are a cue to wake up in the dream. So I need to work with resolution and intent on identifying and programming memory of these triggers. 

I almost became lucid in a dream this morning.

In this dream I was being followed around by a white fluffy house

I was then sitting in my car, riding in the passenger seat.
Suddenly the white cat jumped into my lap, curled up, purred, and fell
asleep. I remember saying aloud, “Hmm, I’m usually so
allergic to cats, but not this cat–that is strange.” That is when I was
close to realizing I was dreaming, but no cigar.

I did some informal research on white dream cats and found the following:

  • Cats normally represent Wisdom in dream. In this case the cat was white
    (pure), and nonallergic (nontoxic). 
  • Cats represent a growing need for independence.
  • Cats are a symbol of womanhood and feminine, which goes along with the High Priestess card I drew tonight.
  • Dreaming of a clean white cat, denotes entanglements which,
    while seemingly harmless, will prove a source of sorrow and loss of

In the dream context, the white cat was following me. Then, when I was on getaway in the car, it popped up there quite by surprise. My interactions
with the cat in the dream felt positive; nothing was sinister about the cat.

Perhaps of note for the “I” moving through the dream is the fact that, although I was followed, I wasn’t consciously leading. I also was in the passenger seat of my own car. I don’t even know who was driving.

I read that if a woman dreams about a cat or cats, the cats are usually symbols of how the
woman views herself. This personal perception includes not only how the woman
thinks of herself physically (fluffy, puffy, and white?), but also how she relates to her intuition, her
creativity, and how she sees herself in relation to men. I’m not sure what to make of this.

Healthy cats in dreams can indicate that a woman has a high level of
self-confidence. Dream cats in great condition can also mean that a woman is comfortable with
her personal power. Power is not synonymous with control. Controlling people attempt to keep tabs
and direct everything and everyone around them precisely because they feel that they
have no power. Power is neutral, it is neither good nor evil.

I asked Kurt what he thought of my dreams. He said the traveling
theme of late is a clue that I am supposed to astral travel (he actually said
this). The white cat is just a trigger I implanted in the dream to become lucid,
because I’m normally so severely allergic to cats. It is like when you cut your
hand in a dream and yet it doesn’t hurt at all. I did realize that I was normally allergic; I just failed to draw the next conclusion: that I was dreaming.

Oh, I think Kurt is right: After all, the cat was sleeping. I was supposed to put 2 and 2 together and wake up in the dream! Instead, I was taken for a ride.


Here I discuss B. Alan Wallace’s Dreaming Yourself Awake, some of his suggestions, and some success I had with one dream. 

I think I forgot to mention in this recounting that I had been using thresholds during the day to trigger my asking myself whether I were dreaming. In the dream, it was when I looked back at the threshold of the bathroom that I realized that I was dreaming.

Correction–B. Alan Wallace, not Alan Watts.