Copies of Me with Strange Dropouts
I think I need to study Pawel’s crazy practice notes. He certainly has a unique take.
My sit was again very strange tonight. I’m immediately “falling” into rich, deep states that have many really hard shifts. I have no idea what these states are. I fall into them, shift up, down, up, down, sideways, even, but I don’t seem to really go anywhere, oddly. I’m not exactly in Boundless Space or Boundless Consciousness. Tonight I seem to be partly in insight stages of Fear up through Disgust, and partly in these undefined jhana states.
With eyes closed, I feel “copies” of me vibrating around in and outside of me.
I’m having all these dropouts but no bliss response, so I cannot confirm that I’m having any cessation-fruitions.